I liken the life of Tommy as a butterfly, because he was ever so fleeting. One moment we were celebrating his arrival, the next minute we were faced with his death.

We think it must have been because he was so frail and took so long to be born. Maybe he wasn’t strong enough to survive? I had explained to the kids the day he was born that he had to stand up to reach the milk – he had to have strength to survive. I told them how if you help a chicken to break free of the egg, it will die. The chicken must go through the difficulties of cracking open its birth chamber…. as that process makes its strong.

So for whatever reason, Tommy wasn’t strong enough and he passed away.

Nicholas brought me instantly into THE NOW after we told him what happened.

He exclaimed “OH NO”, and I instantly went into explaining…. he wasn’t strong enough bla bla bla…. but Nicholas cut me off and said “OH NO, now we have to dig a big hole” and my tears of saddness turned to tears of laughter as I realized that in THAT moment, Nicholas spoke the truth of what was happening. Tommy was gone. He was dead and now we had to deal with the body that WAS Tommy.

Thanks to Ali & Lex we didn’t have to dig the big hole – they brought up their digger and a beautiful frangipani to place over the grave.

All things pass…. animals.. people…. places…. nothing ever stays the same. And once again its all about “letting go”.

Blessings along your path.

Trudi

I think life is all about learning to LOVE…. everyone and everything – including ourselves and our shadow selves and all the many selves that are in others!!! Anyway, that’s what I am learning this week. It kind of all fits together in the “why am I here” box.

I think it all comes down to love.

Loving…. and letting go….and loving… and letting go… and loving again & over again……

I spent yesterday in the hospital with Nicholas (every now & then he gets “cyclic vomiting” & will vomit for 5 days if I don’t get him to the hospital.)

So, I am in there all day yesterday… relaxing… trying to be in the NOW & not think about all the things I SHOULD (or could) be doing at home with our group of guests.

But its all ok… I spent all day letting go… and seeing the Godlight in the wonderful nursing staff and doctors who were very helpful in assisting us.

I feel for me right now, I am learning to love everyone – and myself – being here at Heartland. I AM meant to be exactly where I am.

The people that come seek only to be loved too. How best to show them, by simply loving me & loving them.

Nothing else matters.

Do we need to heal the past? Our fractured hearts and hurt souls carrying pain from the past & childhood memories.  Is it necessary to pull out all the old stuff & deal with it?  My inner voice says yes… when the time is right, the process will happen naturally. And as we heal all those parts of ourselves, then we become truly whole, loving beings.

The greatest gift would be to truly see everything & everyone as God. Living breathing parts of the Divine!!! YUMMMM!!!!!

Well I must go. Mantras are next then chakradance…… I was going to say “the best parts of the day” but I know in higher truth…. All parts are equally the “best bits”!!! J  

Blessings & may the Divine shine in you today!

Love Trudi